Living Passionately & Loving You

The last two weeks of my life could be summed up like this:

IT SUCKS TO BE ME.

I’ve been telling myself this consistently as my stress level rises daily to new levels.  Why?  Because I’m working and I’m packing up my house, and I have too much stuff, and I’m not approaching the packing in an orderly manner, and I can’t find my notary stamp because I packed it in some unlabeled box, and I can’t find that new pair of underwear I bought because I don’t know which box that’s in either, and…

Do you feel my pain?  I just keep thinking if I was better at packing or more organized, life would be better.  If I could just get focused, life would be better.  If I wasn’t a procrastinator, life would better, and if I didn’t have ADHD, life would DEFINITELY BE BETTER.  <=== More on that little nugget of  info about me on another day.

Then, as if my own negative banter wasn’t enough to kill my motivation, I got totally bummed when I shared my excitement about launching a new business in Chicago, with a casual acquaintance and she said “Have you lost your ever-lovin’ mind? Why do you insist on steroid level multi-tasking?  You’re setting yourself up for failure instead of success”.   As the excitement rapidly drained from my body, I thought, “am I crazy?”  ”Should I wait”?  ”Maybe I’m too unorganized to take all this on”.

But today, I read this article on living passionately and loving your quirky self.  And I decided to stop the negative self-talk.  And more importantly, to stop internalizing other people’s negative opinions about me.   It’s unproductive, brings me down, limits my creativity and just plain jacks up my mood.  I don’t mean that I don’t want wise counsel from people who have my best interests at heart.  I have a success support team that keeps it real with me and tells me when I’m heading off track.  That’s a desirable thing.  But just the negativity for negativity’s sake is not cool.

Are you living passionately and loving your quirky self?   I am!  And on that note, I’m off to find my notary stamp.  Leave me a comment on what you’re thinking.  I’d love to hear from you.